Love me some Ativan

I thought I wanted to get remarried, I thought I might want to have another kid. I thought this was supposed to be easier. You fall in love, you get married, you have a happy family? Wouldn't that be nice. So what do you do when you don't want to be touched by them, or go home to them, or even speak to them? Is that what love is? This shitty feeling that I'm not good enough, I'm too much of a freak in bed for him? I'm so lost and confused. I can't stand being around him a lot of the time, I'm embarrassed to hang out with him with my friends. But I think I still love him. More later...being summoned.

What we take for granted

You wake up each morning and just know certain things. You know you have to eat breakfast, you know you have to shower for work, and you know that your son is there to greet you with a hug. One of my closest friends will never have that again and it makes me realize how much I take for granted that simple hug, or an I love you Mom. What if one day you never saw them again. I wouldn't know what I would do. How do people get through these things and as a friend what can I do for her. I wish I could bring him back home to her, to make her smile again, even just for one last hug and an I love you Mom. I love you Bobbie!