Venting

Ok, so I'm just gonna vent for a few since I have no need to watch my words, or mind who's around when I'm on here. My son has a non existent sperm donor. We separated when he was only a year old and he hasn't tried at all to be in his life. I've driven 10 hours to meet him for him to not show up, I never deny him visitation, and would like for him to be in my son's life. I learned from my parents to not talk smack about him to my son, because god knows the complex that gave me as a child. He claims to love him yet seems just to call at 1 in the morning drunk off his ass and doesn't even ask about him. So, anyway, today I get a letter in the mail that the courts in his state think that his child support payment should be $56 a month!!! He doesn't have to pay for the last 10 years of his life either. I filed the claim 9 years ago. How is this right? The kicker was that the monthly portion for health care is $2. I pay almost $400 a month for medical coverage and his portion is $2? Wtf is that gonna do for him? Buy a toothbrush? Sometimes I think I shouldn't of even put his name on the birth certificate. I so wanted to have a cookie cutter family, and yea, I was really wrong. I am pretty happy with my life right now except for those moments when he calls or I get a court letter and it brings all my feelings back to the surface. I just want for my son to have good relationships. Thanks for listening.

I'm a posting virgin. lol

Besides posting an update or 2 on facebook, this is my first official blog posting. So, to start, I will give you some background on myself. I'm 29, just turned in April. I'm a female, though sometimes I wish not. I have a 10yr old, whose going to be starting 5th grade this September. I work at a furniture store. Everyday there is a new adventure in realizing how people don't appreciate others who are in service jobs. This blog will probably just be my way of venting when all of the people in my world piss me off or if I just think of something witty to say. Talk to you soon.